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Who needs a comfort zone anyway?

Its been a while.

2024 threw me some pretty horrid curve balls, I was exhausted; emotionally, mentally and physically.  And I allowed myself to get lost among it all.

2025 has been about making peace with the demons, coping with the new way of doing things and finding passion in life again.

It all started with a message in a Facebook forum group little over six weeks ago, I asked for a pilot.  Not the ‘fly me to an exotic island kind’ but rather someone who would take the lead and pilot my tandem so I could start getting back to the things I love.

A few people reached out, one is just a few miles away.  Another has recently started training to be a pilot and again is within a few miles.  Then there was John, he organises social rides for groups of visually impaired people, matching them with pilots on a social ride once a month.

And it was one of these social rides that I found myself at yesterday.

This option wasn’t as local, but as I didn’t need to take my own tandem; with the help of a friend giving me a lift I joined the fun … or madness.

An early start to get to Reading for 9am on a Sunday, where I joined 4 other visually impaired riders, their pilots and several support riders for a 26 mile ride that saw us travel through Cavisham and Henley-on-Thames with some pretty good audio description from my pilot.

Realising the last time I rode anything more than ‘around the block’ was in 2022 and that was only 5 miles – so this ride threw me completely out of my comfort zone.

But I absolutely loved it.

We stopped at around 13 miles for a coffee and much required flapjack sugar fix, as the ride involved many hills and some poorly maintained roads with uncomfortable pot holes.

My pilot was brilliant, he explained all the terms to me, he warned me of cars approaching in front, cars from behind and even dogs and horses. 

He also pointed out the boats on the river, the big posh houses and the flowers in the hedgerows as we went past them.

It took about 20 minutes to get into a rhythm with him; but by the end of the ride we were pretty clued into each other.

It’s a common misconception that the stoker on the back of the bike just sits and pedals a bit.  There were actually times when I needed to put more force in to get us going on a hill start as they need a good rear push.

Yes; the pilot takes control of the gears and such, but it is a team effort; which going by the aching thighs and saddle sore I’m feeling today I feel the description of a gentle social ride was a little economical with the truth.

But incase you haven’t realised by now.  I loved it, I can’t wait to go again, sadly work commitments means that’s not for a few months.

But it was an amazing adventure and one that I am not going to put off any longer.

Thankfully my leg strength hasn’t completley diminished in the last year of inactivity.

And I have found a new passion.

Now to buy some good quality padded cycling shorts!

What a Year.

Those who have been round for a while will realise that I have been rather quiet of late.

If truth be told; it’s been over a year!

But, that’s all about to change.

You may get sick of me in the next few months, but lots to update. Many posts will be backdated to when the drafts were penned.

Hope you enjoy

Updates Incoming

Life has been a little busy; 2023 has seen some major changes.

In February, I returned to paid work for the first time in over a decade.

In June, I started training with my 3rd guide dog.

Both have been absolutely BRILLIANT, yet thoroughly EXHAUSTING.

However it is time to get back to one of my passions, time to write again.

Blogs incoming.

A year already

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Short & Sweet – The First Day

We arrived safely at the hotel, checking into our room and are just about to meet the other guide dog owners, their dogs and the trainers who will be getting us through this.

Through the power of Facebook, I already know one of the other guide dog owners and as the same trainer has all three dogs that are on class, the dogs have already spotted each other and gone into play mode!

Ben is the palest of the three Golden, in-fact if we line them up right it looks like the colour started to run out by the time it got to Ben.  All three dogs are boys and the other two are actually litter-mates but having trained together with the GDMS (Guide Dog Mobility Specialist) they are all best of friends.

As I said in my previous post, I have never done this type of training before.  Which is making me feel a little anxious, but I am also excited.  I have already fallen head over heels in love with Ben, he has a quirky goofy side that comes out every so often.  And being only eighteen months he is the baby of the group, just another thing I have never had before in a guide dog.  As both the girls were past maturity when they came to me; I am learning even more about dogs than ever before.

Today is about settling in, finding our way around the hotel and getting an idea of how our days are going to play out.  We are in a beautiful hotel in Blandford, guide dogs have held classes here before, but we are only the second since Covid and the staff are so helpful.

Now for the work to begin …

Time to go on Class

Despite Ben being my third guide dog, he is introducing me to new experiences before we have even become a partnership.  He is the first guide dog that I have attended a class training with:

My first guide dog Vicky worked before coming to me; her previous partnership ended when the person she was guiding died.  So, aged 4 she was matched with me.  A match that meant we would train from home.  Otherwise known as domiciliary.  Which given that I discovered in the first week of training together that I was pregnant with my son and not just super nervous was perfect.

Then my second guide dog Fizz had also previously worked with another partnership, that saw her come back to Guide Dogs and be offered to me when she was 3 and a half years old.  So again, we trained together from home.  Which with two children to get to school and nursery again worked out perfectly for me.

Domiciliary training has its benefits, such as enabling the partnership to learn local straight off, enabling home life to be disrupted as little as possible as all training is done within ‘school hours’ as such. 

Yet, it also has its downfalls.  It doesn’t give the new guide dog owner the opportunity to completely close off to home life, meet other guide dog owners or undertake group training sessions.

Although, having never known any differently I am not sure how I am feeling about finally getting my class experience.

On paper it sounds amazing! Monday to Friday for two weeks at a hotel, all meals catered for, two weeks of not having to cope with ‘home life as well as training. 

But … There is a little part of me that is nervous. I am going on to a training class in a small village that I have never been to before!  Unlike my ‘home neighbourhood’ which I know very well.  I am going to be like a fish out of water, surely if I don’t know where a I am going, I am not going to be able to direct Ben correctly?

My kids are older now, they live between me and their dads’ so are fully able to understand where I am going and why I am doing it; so thankfully that’s something I don’t need to worry about.  But that doesn’t mean I’m not going to miss them.

Maybe it’s also that it’s been nineteen months since Fizz retired?

Maybe it’s also that guide dogs now use a different training method, with different concerns that I’m feeling anxious?

I have been advised that a Ben is a very smart dog; but what if I’m not good enough for him?

Anyway, it’s a bit late for that now … Our bags are packed, although u feel I am forgetting something.  Ben’s food is all measured out and the volunteer driver will be here in the morning to pick us up.

I’m sure it will be okay; won’t it?

A New Chapter… Welcoming an addition to my family

Close up photo of a golden retrievers head with light brown nose almost booping the camera

Nobody knew that when Fizz retired in November 2021 that I would be without a guide dog for so long. However, at the end of April I got to meet a very handsome young man.

He is a full golden retriever and all being well, he will be my third guide dog.

His name is Ben and he was not even born when Fizz retired. He is a very clever pup and as such is only just 18 months old.

We are off on class in early June.

Watch space this for many ‘snap shot blogs’ of our training and new chapter together.

Splashing in puddles

There are very few instances where I would say my long cane is better than my living, breathing, thinking guide dog; however puddles would most certainly be on the list.

Why you may be asking? Well, it comes down to feedback.

Despite being a Labrador-Retriever Cross, my guide dog Fizz DID NOT like walking in puddles when she is in harness. Which you may think is brilliant for me, however that isn’t the case; as she has no issue with walking me through the puddle as long as she can keep her own paws dry.

So generally the first I know there is a puddle is when I find myself walking in it. The only time I get a heads up that it may be there is because Fizz will walk be either to the left or right of the path so she doesn’t have to walk in it.

This is where a cane is very different. And it can actually give me additional information too on how deep the puddle may be, or how much of the path it covers.

How? I hear you ask….

As a long cane works by sweeping the ground before you, roughly by one and a half steps ahead of me based on the sweeping motion, it can give not just feedback on the objects that may be in the in my path, but the texture and changes of the ground itself.

And when that comes to water, the sound and feel of the sweep is altered.

A shallow covering of water gives very little resistances; yet a deep puddle is like moving a spoon through thick custard.

And as I sweep wirh my cane around a puddle the sound also helps to give feedback on the depth; so that I can try and walk through the shallower parts or even avoid the puddle all together.

Ooh I’m a cartoon

After filming with guide dogs about my eye condition project in 2021; which sadly didn’t go anywhere as such.

I was invited to help them further with this and become a cartoon.

The above video is the final edit and published on Guide Dogs Uk.

And here is the accessible audio described version for my readers who are visually impaired.

Candy gets an upgrade

When Fizz retired in November 2021, I didn’t expect to facing the summer still being reliant on a cane.

But here we are heading into July and the bruises on my stomach and side from multiple cane jabs are beginning to take its toll.

I had previously increased my cane tip from a marshmallow (size and shape not texture!) to a ball. Which as the name suggests is like having a white tennis ball on the end of my cane. The larger tip meant that the jabs were fewer; but the larger the tip the less sensation and feedback.

To give an example of this, beside my house is an older crossing where the tactile paving is under a tree, so throughout the winter the leaves would cover the tactile paving and as such make it difficult to feel that I was approaching the crossing as the larger ball tip didn’t pick up the bumps beneath the leaves.

So, as I am about to head away for a break in Cornwall; I undecided an upgrade was on the cards. Through Facebook connections and groups I had seen a few friends using the ‘no jab cane’. It looked amazing.

So, what is a no jab cane? I hear you ask.

Its actually quite clever: it is where the handle and first section of the cane is hollow, with a spring inside, so that when the cane tip gets caught or jars on an object or cracked paving stone the cane has a shock absorber, that by going into the handle softens the blow and saves my stomach or sides from a blunt force jab.

Because I need as much feedback as possible from my cane I also ordered it with reverting back to the marshmallow tip.

It’s been amazing! The feedback from the smaller tip is much preferred and although there is the occasional jab; I certainly feel the shock absorber taking the force more often instead of me.

The handle on the cane is also much more comfortable; instead of being a black sponge like coating, it is a padded red leather with both a rounded edge and a flat edge to be more comfortable in my hand. As usual the cane also comes with a black elastic strap to secure around my wrist and to secure the cane when folded.

My cane still has the red and white reflectors, so is still my ‘candy cane’ … But a much appreciated upgrade.

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