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Three years have flown

Golden Retriever sat on shingle beach with a rough sea behind themThis week is three years since I qualified Guide Dog Ben.

Despite Ben being my third dog, this was the first time I had trained ‘on class’ rather than from home (known as domicillary training)

There are pro’s and con’s to both and I was really looking forward to gaining the experience.

For me the biggest difference was that my training took place in Blandford; an area I had never visited before.  Meaning that I couldn’t rely on ‘muscle memory’ as I can within my home town.

There were also some minor changes to the wording used and commands.  Thankfully Ben’s puppyraisers had trained him with multipul commands, so when I slipped into old habits he knew what I meant!

And what have I learned in the last three years?

 

Firstly, just because the training was over and we were ‘qualified’ and ‘signed off’ as a partnership, did not mean that we stopped learning from each other.

It sounds like a cliché, but there are still times now when I am learning from Ben.

In the most part, he is a ‘bomb-proof’ dog.  But only if I am confident; when I get stressed or agitated this flows from me into his harness.  And then he has little ‘tells’ to show me he is nervous; interesting this one ‘tell’ can also show when he is worked up or frustrated.

I never knew it was possible for a four legged dog to only walk on three of their legs?  What I mean by that is, when Ben is nervous he will keep walking, but will use one of his back legs to scratch the elbow on the matching front leg.

As I said, this isn’t always about being nervous.  This can also happen when he has been excited, maybe with another dog giving off play signals or even if a dog is barking and giving off aggressive energy.

So, with some help from our guide dog trainer we worked on a simple word command for Ben to release the tension.

And that is simply for me to stop, ask him to calm down and wait with him until he ‘shakes it off’

A good body shake is a great way for dogs to release pent up energy or simply to ‘reset’.

I think it is a Goldie thing, but I see so much of my first guide dog Vicky in Ben, she would always happily put her head into her harness, but after a step or two, she would have a good shake.  As if to get the harness into position for her and move her fur.

”Calm Down” is said with a soft voice, patience and reassurance.

Given my employment, volunteer roles and varied friendship groups Ben is not a stickler for routine.  He knows some days are busy work days for him and then when I go to work, I am the busy one and he gets to snooze through my shifts:

Saying that, he is very particular about walking in a set way on our more familiar routes.  He will adapt if there is an obstacle or road works, but for the most part he likes his familiar routes.

With my daughter having just finished her second year at LMA in London, Ben has regularly found himself guiding me through Waterloo station onto the tube and regularly visiting Stratford or North Greenwich, his memory for where the lifts are is amazing.  And maybe also helped by the fact that there is a Caffè Nero directly opposite one of the lifts at Waterloo.

When it is busy this is when I need him most, which I am sure he knows, as he absolutely thrives in a busy environment.

It’s only when we are local to home and on a large pedestrian area that he isn’t as engaged or focused.  And I have been known to end up following a walking pigeon!  He doesn’t chase them, but he does look at times as if he doesn’t understand how they can be walking one minute and then flap their wings and fly away.

At the moment (June/July 2026) Ben has found himself ‘grounded’ due to exceptionally high temperatures and humidity.  As a double coated dog I am still amazed that he isn’t bald given how much hair he is dropping!

The reason for ‘grounding him’ is because the paths are hot, the temperature is over 24 degrees and as much as I hate using Candy my Cane, his wellness and health comes first.

He has spent many a day heading out for a sniffari walk at 5am or 10pm.  This is where he isn’t in harness, but rather on a long lead; he can literally sniff all he wants.  A sniffari is a great enrichment and means he is still getting some brain work in despite not putting on his harness and guiding.

Last week when we had a break in temperature and he did get to work in harness; he was so excited, he was literally bouncing the entire walk.

Ben loves to work, he also has a cheeky side and if he spots a Starbucks then I am often walking through the door before I have even realised.

He will do this especially in London, I sometimes think if he could talk, this is his way of saying:

Let’s just take a moment to decompress, you need caffeine and I need a little paw rest.

Although there was a long wait for Ben, in-fact he wasn’t even born when Fizz retired; he was certainly worth it!

in one way I can’t believe we have been together three years and then at other times it feels like he has always been here.

So, here are to many more years ahead of us; to the adventures; the new experiences and to growth.

As I said earlier, Ben feels confident when I feel confident, he is a sensitive soul and this is something we are working on together.

 

 

 

 

it’s just there …

Three words most visually impaired people dread hearing:

It’s over there.  It’s Just there.  

and even

just over there.

Those words are linked  to a magical land that is forever out of our reach.

Today while at the train station I ordered my coffee and moved to the end of the counter to listen for my name and await my drink.

But being busy the barista simply said my name, put my coffee on the counter and walked away.

Which for most customers this would be absolutely no issue, but for me it creates the opposite. Because a white coffee cup on a light coloured counter is really hard to make out, even more so when the cup is in such a position that I can’t make out the green branding.

No problem, a quick “Could you please hand me my coffee” and back came those magical words “it’s just there!”

Thankfully a man who was awaiting his order jumped in to help, he popped a collar on my cup and handed it to me; even explaining where the opening was. (Major brownie points!)

As I walked away I heard him ask the staff to do better.

He pointed out that I was stood at a distance from the counter so my guide dog was fully visible to the staff.

Thank You for kind strangers, I appreciate it.

But just a word of advice, “over there” is absolutely a magical land where both tomorrow and procrastination live.

Even more so when you walk through life with a visual impairment.

Candy gets an upgrade

When Fizz retired in November 2021, I didn’t expect to facing the summer still being reliant on a cane.

But here we are heading into July and the bruises on my stomach and side from multiple cane jabs are beginning to take its toll.

I had previously increased my cane tip from a marshmallow (size and shape not texture!) to a ball. Which as the name suggests is like having a white tennis ball on the end of my cane. The larger tip meant that the jabs were fewer; but the larger the tip the less sensation and feedback.

To give an example of this, beside my house is an older crossing where the tactile paving is under a tree, so throughout the winter the leaves would cover the tactile paving and as such make it difficult to feel that I was approaching the crossing as the larger ball tip didn’t pick up the bumps beneath the leaves.

So, as I am about to head away for a break in Cornwall; I undecided an upgrade was on the cards. Through Facebook connections and groups I had seen a few friends using the ‘no jab cane’. It looked amazing.

So, what is a no jab cane? I hear you ask.

Its actually quite clever: it is where the handle and first section of the cane is hollow, with a spring inside, so that when the cane tip gets caught or jars on an object or cracked paving stone the cane has a shock absorber, that by going into the handle softens the blow and saves my stomach or sides from a blunt force jab.

Because I need as much feedback as possible from my cane I also ordered it with reverting back to the marshmallow tip.

It’s been amazing! The feedback from the smaller tip is much preferred and although there is the occasional jab; I certainly feel the shock absorber taking the force more often instead of me.

The handle on the cane is also much more comfortable; instead of being a black sponge like coating, it is a padded red leather with both a rounded edge and a flat edge to be more comfortable in my hand. As usual the cane also comes with a black elastic strap to secure around my wrist and to secure the cane when folded.

My cane still has the red and white reflectors, so is still my ‘candy cane’ … But a much appreciated upgrade.

Time to let you in on a little secret

Canary Wharf Roundell with Guide Dog sat in front of it in her guide dog harness.

Since the beginning of April 2020, when it became clear that lock-down was here to stay I joined an online virtual challenge called ‘Race at Your Pace’. Being that both running and cycling require the input of a sighted guide I joined the walking challenge and between April and 31st December I clocked up 612mi.

BUT WHY?

As a form of training for a challenge I hope to complete now we are in 2021. Which I originally wanted to call ‘my Womble Challenge’, in that I shall be walking the London Underground Overground (cue cheesy 1970s tv theme tune) However, as this is a different version of The Tube Challenge I completed in 2019 I have setted for

‘Tinks Tube Challenge, a 2021 Twist’

As it was “Tinks Tube Challenge” that saw me travel to and through all 270 tube stations on The London Underground with world record holder Andy James, in under 19 hours on this day two years ago.

However this time, (thankfully) there is no time challenge or running. Instead each line I walk will enable me to see London on the surface. Take in the sights, the sounds and the smells. And with the length of the walks vary from just 32 minutes to 2.5 days. (as i will be stopping and sleeping) if it is a part of london covered by the underground network it will form part of the walk. I plan to walk to each tube station on each line; this will see me visit most stations more than once over the full eleven walks.

With Kings Cross St Pancras being the staiton I will visit the most.

This is not a new challenge, there have been variations of this challenge achieved over the last few decades; it was actually reading Mark Masons’ book ‘Walk the Lines, The London Underground OVERGROUND’ That inspired me to take on this mammoth challenge.

Which if TfL run to time will see me complete 272 stations with the new Northern Line extension out to Batttersea Power Station.

As with my previous tube challenge I am completing this as part of my fundraising to name a life-changing guide dog Victoria. 2020 would have been ideal for this as the puns relating to sight and 2020 are in abundance, however the Covid pandemic had other ideas and foolishly lead me to believe that by now we would be out the other side and returning to some normality instead of (again) being in a form of lockdown. (Oh how niave of me!)

So instead of launching this challenge today on the 2nd Anniversary of me completing the original challenge as I had planned; by starting out on my first walk I can only write about it here and instead build the tension.

2021 for me has already started with BIG BIRTHDAY, so it is only fitting that I give back to others. Guide dogs are and have been a big part of my life since 2009. So it is in this monumental year for me age wise I return the support, while doing something that I am actually really looking forward to.

Given the distances covered on each walk, there will be very few that I am able to complete with Fizz by my side, instead I have a team of volunteers to support me as sight guides and my faithful cane.

Given the current restrictions and dangers to everyone with this pandemic I feel it is a much more realistic expectation that I probably won’t get to physically start my challenge until the latter part of the year. So, for now I will continue to train, working particularly on increasing my fitness and stamina; so that when it is safe to do so I will be good to go.

…. On a side note I have also updated my fundraising page too, which can be found HERE

Loosing Control or rather Rethinking that Control

Loosing control is just two words, saying them is the easy part; actually allowing myself to do them is a whole other story.

Control can mean many things to many people; for me control it is organising, planning and reducing the opportunity for me to feel ‘out of control’ in a situation, because when it comes to my sight and hearing loss I don’t have any control.

It is why I have been known to walk a virtual route of a new area with the help of Google Maps and Google Streetview. It is also how I can appear confident and independent; When actually most of the time I am neither, I am just simply prepared.

And for the most part, this tactic works.

Then……. Then I do something I never expected to feel out of control with and so ensued a moment of vulnerability. (Or rather a good 10 minutes) and I find myself overrun by emotion.

What was I doing? I hear you ask.

I was out for a bike ride on my tandem, something I have done many times before, in an area that I know incredibly well. Which maybe is why it hit me so hard.

We were on a cycle path, not the main road, yet as we approached a set of traffic lights the turn felt wrong, so I tried to stop it, which anyone who has ever been on the back of a tandem will tell you is damn near impossible!

So we wobbled, my feet came off of the pedals as did my pilots and although we didn’t come off the bike completely it could easily be classed as a ‘Near Miss’

Hence my upset and emotion.

Thankfully my pilot knows me well and in the middle of this simply said:

You’re in control of what you get to enjoy and feel relaxed about. You control the route we take, I’ll help with the rest.

We do all this as a team. I’ll brake, change gears and steer, I’ll keep us safe.

The worst part of it for me was that because I had panicked, because I had lost control, my pilot could have got hurt and when I said this mid snotty-sob he simply replied:

But I didn’t…. WE had it covered.

Which made me realise that as a team…. We did.

Because of my lack of sight and hearing, it only goes to follow that my balance and perspective is greatly altered. It was this that had sent me into my moment of panic. And from that point on, on the ride I simply listen to my pilot, pedalled harder on the up-hill and let the bike coast on the down-hill. All while trying to enjoy the view.

And now, back with both feet firmly on the ground I can reflect. And realise that this was an inevitable, because I needed to accept that being on a tandem IS a team effort, No matter how good my sight, even I wouldn’t be able to do it on my own. So rather than look at it as a ‘byproduct’ of my disability it is time for me to rethink cycling. Cycling is something I CAN do; I just CHOOSE to do it a part of a team.

After all, the benefit of being on a tandem is that you are only 50% responsible for getting up those steep hills!

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